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Opinion | Opinião

Going Mental

Despair is a bitch. Comparing reasons for despair is torture. The horizon of normality disappears under the blizzard of anxiety.

Loneliness becomes huge to the point of we getting apart from ourselves. Probably the last device from the survival kit. Witnessing instead of acting. Nothing left to feel except for the omnipresent squeeze on the chest. Absolute paralysis. Ever growing pressure from a flow of tears that will never come.

There is anger, of course. All seems unfair and that view isn’t far from truth. Nature is unfair. Justice is a human creation and we’re still far away to get it done, complete and effective. Casualties are expected, injuries and death. Mental wounds give away our flesh.

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Personal | Pessoal

Insoluble

“Your situation is insoluble”, they told me yesterday, meaning I have to decide whether to get back to the job that burned me out or taking an unpaid leave. Things would be much easier if there were jobs to apply to. With this Covid-19 situation one can’t even flip burgers.

I’ve been investing my time on my Etsy shop and the monetization of this blog. Ads got started last Wednesday. Now it is a matter of providing good enough content and spreading the word. It is said the main keys are consistence and persevering. Easy as pie.

I have a strong admiration for survivors, people with keen eye and shrewd audacity, capable of evaluating strategies to make the best possible living without taking advantage of others. My wish is to be capable of rising after collapse, to the point of having no more immobilizing fear. If only I was certain of being successful with these online activities…